I think the pressure of ticking certain boxes before turning 30 certainly played a part for us both and the reality it may take some time to get pregnant if we were even lucky enough to be able to have a baby but we thought now was the time to find out.
The worst part of deciding to have a baby is the waiting game month after month, the doctors and nurses drill it in to you from a young age you must never miss a pill but when you actually want to get pregnant every month makes you more and more anxious, you question if something is wrong and it feels like everyone else is getting pregnant except you, i had tried all sorts from drinking pomegranate juice and eating pineapple core in hope the wives tales were true.
After being off my pill for 4 months i couldnt quite believe it when i saw those 2 lines... no seriously i didnt i threw the test in the bin assuming i could see a faint line because i wanted to see a line, this went on for a few days until that line became stronger and stronger and then i decided to buy another brand of test just to make sure it wasnt a dodgy batch.. it still didnt feel real and then i had the task of telling Louis, its not the easiest thing to just come out with casually on a friday so i thought i would make him a little box up and pretend it was a belated wedding anniversary gift; 2nd wedding is Cotton so i filled a box with cotton buds and got a baby grow printed with Baby Edwards-Jones due whilst hoping i wouldnt jinx anything and then got a little card with a poppy seed to signify how small baby EJ was and the positive test.... safe to say he was shocked after months of asking if i was pregnant! haha
So Baby EJ is due 18th March 2019 (which isnt that far away now!!) But we are so excited for our little explorer to arrive and we can start our next chapter
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